when HE let you off

I keep scaring myself [sort of reminding myself, my way]
that we still in this life because of Him
He is giving us chances to be better
so we deserve His paradise

And I still believes in that
I'm still here, because of Him
I stay in this tarbiyyah, because of Him
Not because others, but Him
Solely, Him.

And I keep reminding my beloved sisters
about the importance of holding on on His 'rope'
even so, He is capable to let us off
imagine what will happen if we not?

You come or not, it is not my choice.
Not yours neither when it comes to the question
to or not to attend His taman-taman syurga
He choose whoever He wants to
And exempt all who He do not want to

And I keep forcing myself
To keep attending those usrah and daurah
Spending more money on it
In quest to His mardhatillah
'Cause I know, if I stop, Allah will stop too.
Even if I can't be all what He wants,
I still want to be better and better each day.

It would be so scary to even imagine
To live without His light
To live in a complete darkness
That will eventually lead us to An-Narr (Hell)

But then, I was told to piss off
To not force anybody to attend anything
Yeah, it's not my choice and I have nothing to do with your life
Do really I?
From your pov, it's possible you see it that way
But sisters, as how much I love you,
I want us all baraan (walk in a large group) to enter Jannah
How could I, leaving you behind, and enter it by myself
When we spent so much time together?
Looking for His paradise.
How could I?

nurfarahhazwaniawaluddin

11032016 14:40

a helpless sister, looking for a sister

to cry in her shoulder and her arms

*hugs*

BU Megevand, Besancon